7.29.2010

Creativity

I’ve always envisioned my creativity as a sort of lap-band that goes around my heart. Only instead of it being some piece of plastic or whatever constricting my stomach, I think of it as a ribbon wrapped around my heart that encourages it to grow bigger, pound harder, love stronger.

I’ve always wanted to take that ribbon and mash it all together until my creativity is just a big, pulsing ball of energy, then rip it open and let the colors splash across a paper. To have one canvas where you can point to it and say utterly complete, “This. Is. Me.” I want to know what mine would look like so badly.

7.26.2010

I LOVE MAGGIE

OH MY FREAKING GOSH!

GUYS!!!!!!

GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?!?!

Okay, so you know how I'm always trying to hype up my other blog, darklightlullabye.com? OH MY GOSH!!!

Okay, wait, so I posted on here my review of Shiver and Linger? Yeah, the really long post that you all skipped? MAGGIE STEIFVATER HERSELF READ IT. AND LIKED IT. AND TWEETED ABOUT IT.

*STARES FLABBERGASTED AT THE COMPUTER SCREEN*

You have NO idea how hyped I am. Okay, no, so even better? Apparently, when Maggie (<3) tweeted about it, she linked it to my site, darklightlullabye.com, so OTHER PEOPLE READ IT... Guess what that means?!?!? I HAVE FOLLOWERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Like, legit followers! Followers that I've never even met before! Strangers that subsribed to me so they can follow my reviews!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I seriously giggled and squealed when I found out. Yes, I was sitting in the Starbucks cafe in Barnes and Noble. Yes, people looked at me weird. No, I didn't care, BECAUSE I HAVE FOLLOWERS! 12 amazing strangers who get notified every time I post a review and leave nice comments like "beautiful review..."

:) :) :) :)

Talk about an ego-boost!!!!!

BAHH!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO EXCITED WITH MYSELF!

Okay. I'm done ranting (although I'm still giggling sillily to myself. Sillily? Is that a word? You know what? I DON'T CARE! I HAVE FOLLOWERS!).

Take care. Read a book. Pet a puppy. Shave a walrus. Eat your brocoli. Be happy.

Did you know...?

Facts of life... for today.

FACT: Just now, I sat with my earbuds in for over half an hour before I realized I hadn't turned any music on.

FACT: In the sixth/seventh grade, I found a bracelet on the floor of the girl's locker room. Coincidentally, this is the one bracelet that I have worn most often these past years.

FACT: I have always been fascinated with birds of all types. Also, I love wolves. This is a little know fact about me, and I don't understand why it's "little known."

FACT: I just noticed that Starbucks has these coffeecups that look like cupcakes. I want one really, really bad.

FACT: The staff of the Oceanside Starbucks cafe in Barnes and Noble (where I go to get internet connection) apparently ISN'T the same everyday. I don't recognize these people :( I also haven't seen my security guard again, therefore, I am not friends with him.

FACT: When I get a migraine or nasty headache (my nueroglogist said that they are now classifying all headaches as 'migraines,' there are just bad ones and worse ones. Huh), I drink caffinated soda. Dr. Pepper is by far the best.

FACT: I am now certified by the American Heart Association for CPR. However, I pray fervently that I will never actually have to use it: it TERRIFIES me. *shudder*

FACT: MLIA no longer tells you if your submissions are published are not. I am thoroughly angry.

FACT: In my quest to read 100 books before January 1st, I am on book #86. I am now writing reviews of each book I read. You can read them at my all-things-literature blog, darklightlullabye.com.

FACT: I'm out of facts for now. Thanks for reading.

7.21.2010

School Drama... and it hasn't even started yet

Diego has now arrived in Oceanside. Life is good again.

Eewww... but bad news. Despite ALL MY PREREQUISTE work (is that how you spell that?), my MiraCosta program is FULL.

*bangs head on desk a few times.*

Sooooo... I'm taking some random classes at Palomar for the fall semester. What am I taking? Well, we'll see how it turns out... Beginning Acting, Intro to Creative Writing, Developmental Physcology, Ceramics I... Good stuff, man. Good stuff.

AND THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY FOR THE MOMENT!

(Except that I miss having internet at my fingertips all the time. The Barnes and Noble cafe is losing it's cool-factor. And I find it remarkably pathetic that I can recognize all the staff.

7.16.2010

Shiver; Linger, Maggie Steifvater

Twilight is over. Shiver and Linger are here, and it's beautiful.

Stephanie Meyer, say goodbye. Maggie Steifvater is doing it better ten-fold.

I've said it before with Lament, and Ballad, and then Shiver, and now Linger. Maggie Steifvater is magic.

"the cold.
Grace has spent years watching the wolves in the woods behind her house. One yellow-eyed wolf--- her wolf-- watches back. He feels deeply familiar to her, but she doesn't know why.

the heat.
Sam has lived two lives. As a wolf, he keeps the silent comapny of the girl he loves. And then, for a short time each year, he is human, never daring to talk to Grace... until now.

the shiver.
For Grace and Sam, love has always been kept at a distance. But once it's spoken, it can't be denied. Sam must fight to stay human-- and Grace must fight to keep him-- even if it means taking on the scars of his past, the fragility of the present, and the impossibility of the future." --(Shiver cover.)
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"the longing.
Once Grace and Sam have found each other, they know they must fight to stay together. For Sam, this means reckoning with his werewolf past. For Grace, this means facing a future that is less and less certain.

the loss.
Into their world comes a new wolf named Cole, whose past is full of hurt and danger. He is wrestling with his own demons, embracing the life as a wolf while denying the ties of being human.

the linger.
For Grace, Sam, and Cole, life is a constant struggle between two constant forces-- wolf and human-- with love baring its two sides as well. It is harrowing and euphoric, freeing and entrapping, enticing and alarming. As their world falls apart, love is what lingers. But will it be enough?" --(Linger cover)

The writing, the story, it's beatuiful and at times poetic. The realationship and love between Grace and Sam is strong and believable, and the situations and lives that they live are true to nature and, again, believable. It's not your typical Urban Fantasy with werewolves. The wolves of Mercy Falls are just that-- wolves. Either all wolf or all human, and the struggles and fight to stay one way or another is emotional and sometimes heartwrenching. These books are powered full of emotion, goodbyes, and fighting to accept life as it is, and fighting to keep love in it's equation. It's full of real problems, real emotions, and real love.

If you have ever wanted to read a love story, now's the time. Get out of that chair and find yourself a copy of Shiver, and you'll probably want to pick up a copy of Linger while you're there because it'll just save you a trip to the bookstore. Trust me, you're going to get sucked in.

I don't care if you're an Edward or Jacob, you will be a Sam. I don't care if you're a Jace or a Simon, a Seth or Keenan, a Niall or an Irial or a Devlin, a Damen, a Jude, a Mr. Darcy, a Mr. Rochester, a Colonel Brandon, a Prince Charming, a Harry or Ron or Hermione or Snape, or whatever ficitional character you're into, you're going to be a Sam. A Sam and Grace.

If I write anything even half as beautiful as Shiver (or Linger), I'll die happy.

Just.... ah. I've read good books before, but nothing this beautiful. Beautiful.

7.14.2010

MiraCosta

Nightmare last night!!!

Apparently, I was being watched by these badguys that were just bidding their time until they came and whacked me or whatever, and I realized that they were tracking me through my blog! SO I HAD TO STOP BLOGGING!

Truly. It was a nightmare.

Anyways. On a happier note, (A free-to-blog note :D), I just checked out MiraCosta (my new college, as of... soon) for the first time today. Nice stuff! It's pretty. And it was way nice to be back on a college campus. WAY nice. I felt like I was an adult again. *Sigh.* Everything feels nice again.

Anyways, so the reason I went was to not only check out the campus, but to test out of my Eng803 class. Um. Yeah. Guess who got a perfect score? BAHAHAHA. The irony... having just left BYUI as an English Major to come here for CNA, MEDICAL CARE of all things... Everything is just funny. And good. Very, very good.

It's nice to have a normal life again.

That is... if I get all my prerequisite stuff done >:/ Now how come it's so hard to find a darn CPR class? And I still don't know if I should go to the Wellness Center or some other building for my physical and TB test, because honestly, I'm so confused. Bah.

But I have faith in myself and my map-reading capabilities! *Raises fist triumphantly!*

(In case you were wondering, yes, I'm at Barnes and Noble again for internet, and NO, THE SECURITY GUARD ISN'T HERE! I feel strangely disappointed.)

7.13.2010

Book Reviewing

UPDATE:

Darklightlullabye.com has officially become my home for book reviews. I decided that, hey, since I'm reading a buttttttttttttload of books, um, doesn't it make sense to write a review?

Makes tons of sense.

So, even though I'm not sure I really want to, I'm going to start writing up reviews of the books I'm reading/have read. Already started.

Want to know what I'm reading? Want to know what's what on the Young Adult market? Want something to sate your boredom with random book reviews? Do it. Go there.

http://darklightlullabye.com

New Domains!

Hey! You! Reader!

Have you been typing in the whole long "www.hollahsthoughts.blogspot.com" every single time you want to go there? WELL TYPE NO MORE!

Thanks to my computer-savy and awesome brother-in-law Greg Peterson, I now own the domains to "Hollysthoughts.com"!

SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET.

Every read "www.darklightlullabye.blogspot.com"? (It's my literature blog of goodness) Well, wouldn't you know? Now, I also have the official domain of "darklightlullabye.com"!

So go on. Do it. Try it out. Same sight, same substance, same Holly, just an OFFICIAL site name.

SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET.

Security Guards and Barnes and Noble

So, I'm here at Barnes and Noble, using the internet. And smelling delicious (yet unobtainable) tasty Starbucks smells and surrounded by books. Mmmm. Best place ever.

However, I'm sitting by the door in the "Web Lounge" or whatever you want to call it, and I'm pretty sure there's a SECURITY GUARD standing by me. Um. At least, I assume he's a secruity guard. Because he's all dressed in a full on suit and tie and spiffy shoes, and he's just standing there by the door, observing everyone. He even has spiffy gold cuff links, and I'm pretty sure there's a gold pin on his lapel, but I can't be sure because I'm sitting on the opposite side of him. Can I just say that I'm terribly intimidated? He seems nice, but really, all security guards intimidate me. Isn't that their jobs? He seems really bored, kind of rocking back and forth on his feet.

OH! Wait! He just directed a kid to the bathroom, and now he's wandering a bit. Checking things out. Liike a security guard.

OH! I just saw his jacket! Okay, so it was a gold tie pin, and on the breast of his jacket was a patch/detail thing that said "M--- (something Security."

So that's it. He officially is a security guard.

Okay, so I feel safer now. Isn't that what security guards are supposed to do? But I also feel like... should I have reason to NOT feel safe? This is Barnes and Noble! All things are safe at Barnes and Noble! This is the home of millions of fairy tales and dreams and... goodness. Barnes and Noble= GOODNESS. It holds the esscense of my soul.

So why do they need a security guard?

I think I should make friends with him. I think I would like him. But I don't think he's supposed to fraternize with the possible threats like me (Am I possible threat? I sure hope not). Or, you know, dorks like me, because I am a happily self-proclaimed dork. And I'm just alright with that :D

Barnes and Noble really is, truly, my happy place. There is nothing but joy here. I absolutely love the smell of new books. If I could bottle that scent, of new ink and freshly cracked spine and the excitement of dingind a new story... I'd spray it on my pillow and let it soak into my dreams every single night. I'd bathe in it. I'd spray it on random strangers as they walked by.

If I could, I'd live here. It's perfect: Noto nly do I have all the books to last me a lifetime, there's a security guard to keep me safe, the Starbucks for delicious pastries and such and the best hot chocolate in the world for substance, internet access, and hello, they have the best bathrooms ever. Or at least that's what I've heard. I don't think I've ever actually seen a B&N bathroom. Aimmee, one of my old roommates once told me that everytime she goes into a Barnes and Noble, she has to go check out their bathrooms. Which I think it a totally cute quirk to have. One of my cousins once said that if she could get locked in any store overnight, it's be a Barnes and Noble. Smart kid.

7.12.2010

Updates You May or May Not Want To Know

OKAY. So.

So. I didn't have anything to really say, I just wanted to put that.

ANYWAYS.

UPDATES!

My Location: I'm here in Oceanside, CA!

Quest to Read 100 Books By January 1st, 2011:
72. The Thirteenth Tale, Diane Setterfield
73. Ink Exchange, Melissa Marr
74. Fragile Eternity, Melissa Marr
75. My Ridiculous, Romantic Obsessions, Becca Wilhite
76. Radiant Shadows, Melissa Marr
77. Evermore, Alyson Noel

Writing: I have yet to finish anything! Like, ever! And somehow I doubt I ever will... hm...

My Internet Connection: Poor! I'm jacking it from some unknown neighbor, and I have to sit with my laptop facing out a certain window, using the TV as a desk... awkward... and it keeps crapping out on me! LAME!

Weather: Ridiculously sunny.

Number of Bums I have Interacted With: Numbers are suprisingly up!

7.04.2010

Future... chuuus

FINALLY! I KNOW WHAT THE NEXT MONTH LOOKS LIKE, officially!

TUESDAY, Mom, Steph, Greg and I are driving down to Oceanside to stay at my Grandparents' Harris' house, (where my dad is currently residing due to work stuff). WHY THIS IS IMPORTANT: Because I'm staying there, baby! I'm moving in with my grands' and my pop in OCEANSIDE, CALIFORNIA!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!

In the following month, we'll be searching out apartments, condo's, the like, for us, the three Empey's, to move into sometime soon. Once we find a semi-permanent place to stay, Mom will come down and join us.

CALIFORNIA, HERE I COME!!!

And I finally got my schooling in order! YUUUS. In the Fall I will be completing a CNA course (Certified Nurses Assistant) which will only take like, one semester, at Mira Costa. From there, I will (hopefully!) enter a MA (Medical Assisting) program at Palomar. That is, if Palomar brings it back, which it might in the spring. The MA program was cut from ALL the San Diego County Community Colleges due to budget cuts. (adsjghfeahvsdahfkstjksadufklwerjvkrdjfvae;oi) As if budget cuts REALLY ended at high school...psh.

SO! My summer: moving to Oceanside, house hunting with pops all over San Diego County, TAKING prerequisite classes (CPR, testing out of whatever English class I might have to take, the like...), and soaking up my lovely California sun! WITH MY OLD TEMECULA FRIENDS! CHUSSS!

As you can see, I'm quite excited.

Okay, I'm beyond excited. Having a PLAN after all these months of waaaaaaaaaiting... it's quite fun.

7.03.2010

Adventures in the Kitchen

3. As I was going up the stairs from the basement, I heard my mom exclaim, "This is a rice cooker?!?!" I nearly dropped my load of laundry I was laughing so hard.


2. Later, while making my oatmeal, I happened to glance at the box.

"Awaken your senses:
Pure deliciousness
Enticing aroma
Invigorating warmth"

Wow, oatmeal, I didn't realize you were this cool.


1. A conversation via text messages with the fantastic Stephanie Lovett:

*note: for those of you not aware of the correct terminology of sprinkles, "Jimmies" are the long, skinny stick-like sprinkles that come in rainbow colors or just plain brown chocolate. They are the ultimate awesomeness and Stephanie and I have a sort of inside-joke obsession about them.

Holly: So, I'm making cupcakes, and of course I'm using jimmies, and my mom comes up and tells me, "most adults don't like sprinkles." I am appalled. I will no longer be growing up.

Stephanie: of course adults love jimmies! What is she talking about?

Holly: I don't know. I'm just... ah.l Distrubed that those words could even be said. LIES!!!

Stephanie: don't worry, she didn't mean it!

Holly: My grandma just agreed with her. These women are seriously confused.

Stephanie:
They're just blinded by what society is telling them about jimmies!

Holly:
(there really was no response better than that, so I went with a...) bahahahahahahahha

Stephanie: hahaha :D

My mother later apologized for "altering our views of the universe."

I'm not so sure I'm ready to forgive her yet.

My Petersons

Stephanie (Empey) Peterson is my big sister, and I love her.

And Greg Peterson is the best brother-in-law a sister could ask for and I love him, too.

And they are fantastic people who are going to do great things and lead great lives.

<3 <3 <3